&&:/ [ logical insanity ],, ?

make this as much of a kodak moment as you want to.
yu-huh, you're right: just this one time, it is actually about you.
and i were you infront of me, i would say it to your face, were you not convinced that i hate you.

i don't.
hate is a strong word. i don't know you, and therefore can't judge you, so i won't.
i usually don't bother with reasoning: it wastes time, but i have come to learn that a lack of doing so just makes it easier for people to stick to their own conclusions of what was said.

you are welcome to criticize me all you like. i'm open, come get me.
do as you want, i don't mind, nor care.
i'm not afraid of you. not in the least. i don't scare easily.

enough time-wasting.

i'm not doing this for me. and i'm not trying to talk you out of or into anything.
i'm just asking you to stop.
please. just stop.

make a choice, stick to it, form a goal, and do anything you can do to make it happen.
sure, accept other people's help along the way if you want it, but only if it's offered. don't drag them in.
if it isn't offered, then maybe they just aren't worth your time.

yeah, you're going to take that the wrong way, or pretend you did, and therefore ignore this very sentence. i don't mind. i am not bossing you around, nor giving you advice.
you don't want it, i know.
don't listen, for all i care. i felt the need to say it, that is all, regardless of who may come across it.

i don't know the details, sure.
i could never understand things from your point of view. never.
i'm not in your situation, i don't have your feedback, i don't know what you know, i haven't seen what you've seen..
the list goes on.

but fact remains that although i don't understand things your way
i can see what it does to other people.
not be involved, nor hear, nor understand.
i am a witness. nothing more.

i could go into more, but i realise that this isn't fully my problem.
and yes, i know you're going to read this.
sure, go on ahead about how i'm being over-confident, arrogant, and question: "oh, well, how do you know that i will?"

i just know.

no self-pitying, just pure, hardcore facts.

i am not trying to put you down, show you up, bitch about you. no.
as hard as it may be to believe, i'm not set out to get you.
never have been, never will be.
that is as honest as i can get under the circumstances, i'm afraid.
ahvell, believe what you will.

i'm sorry about all this. again, i would have rather told you so that you could listen, or hear, rather than read.
and, yet again, i know you will read this. i am not being arrogant, i will just know that after a certain amount of time has elapsed, you will have done so.
if you want me to take this down, i understand. if my facts are all wrong, i'm sorry.
just let me know. i won't think less of you, nor tell anyone anything. you have my word, as worthless as it may be to you.

it had to be done.